Getting there: natal chart
Chiron in Gemini in the 2nd house (how I find healing):
You have a talent for blurring binaries, for softening the membranes between seemingly divergent entities. Your internal life is intricate, contradictory, and multiple. You know how to navigate the spaciousness between opposing concepts, and how to make such distinctions more supple. Your bruises include moments where you find yourself searching, again, for your twin – where you doubt even for a minute, your own wholeness.
South node in Libra in the 6th house (how I learn to let go):
As much as you are a brassy, rough-and-tumble, self-reliant swashbuckler of modern life, a less acknowledged part of you is actually concerned with social courtesies. Maybe you run off a little too much cortisol to feel serene waiting for others to catch up to your pace. You find the labor is sweeter when you can share your toil, sweat, and honey with folks who know you, appreciate you, and ultimately have your back. With the south node in the 6th house, you may find yourself averse to all manner of toiling. Maybe it’s the monotony that gets to you, or the Sisyphean nature of the tasks. Maybe less tangible tasks feel more inviting: combing your dream or imaginary realms for pearls of self-discovery or healing. The thing with the nodes of the moon is that we’re not safe with either extreme. The trick is to stop seeing these sides of yourself as contrary.
North node in Aries in the 12th house (how I’m insatiable):
A significant part of you runs of velocity and adrenaline. You may crave wider margins than most. Possibly, you’ve learned self-reliance as a martial art, which has kept you safe in threatening situations. While self-sovereignty is a virtue, for you it could be an instinct for survival. If you dwell too long in this state of emergency, there’s a chance that’s all you’ll do: survive. You might be used to outpacing others, but it can get lonely over there in your bunker. The antidote to these habits involves trust.
In the 12th house of hidden life, behind the scenes of work, institutions, secrets, and sorrows: you’re a night-blooming flower, needing no sunlight nor audience to unfurl. Indeed, you may feel at home in places of seclusion. You might do your best thinking here: in states of quiet, or rest, or contemplation. The 12th house can also be the area where we get ensnared in toxic thought patterns or habits. While you may be more willing than most to acknowledge the ghosts that dwell here, it may be easy to give them too much elbow room. Come back to the practices that make you feel embodied, or help you sift through the rubble of past hurts or self-doubt.
Descendant in Scorpio in the 7th house (committed relationships):
You gravitate toward folks who aren’t timid to shine their miner’s lamps in your deepest wells and cisterns. While it may take a minute to earn their trust, once you forge that connection together, they’re unafraid to bear their whole hearts. And they expect wholeness from you in return. You can’t hide from these people, and you don’t need to. They want to love all of you: even the parts you make small. Your best friendships and love affairs will involve some of this night vision: the tender witnessing and radical acceptance of other people’s deepest and rawest feelings. Pluto is a deeply probing planet, and you’re not interested in superficial encounters. You possess a forensic curiosity about other people, and conversations tend to excavate matters to the root. This isn’t always a comfortable process for you or other people involved, but your preference for radical honesty helps you identify who is ready to meet you there. It requires courage to share your shadow with another person, and it requires courage to witness their shadow in return. The magic of courage is that it tends to be contagious.
Imum Coeli in Leo in the 4th house (ancestry and home):
Your forebears may have modeled confidence and performance as a sacred act. On the other hand, their egos may have billowed as sky-high as manes on occasion. Family could be central for you. You’re on the quest for belonging, sleuthing the branches of your family tree, and reclaiming the mythologies that seeded you. Part of your life orbits around cultivating a home environment full of comfort and emotional nurturance. Home is where you witness the nerves frayed from the day and gather them, stitching yourself back together. Your home life is the site of limitless exchange. Whatever your path, words are one currency you deal in. The God Mercury was a trickster, and you likely embody some of that quality too: shapeshifting between domestic roles. Mercury thrives in liminal spaces, so you may find yourself with more than one home or family, or lines between them that constantly blur. Your task is to stay attuned to what helps you feel safe, and what substantiates your sense of belonging. It’s okay if the answer to those questions change.
Midheaven in Aquarius in the 10th house (public image or vocation):
Whatever your vocation, your satisfaction in the role will require intellectual stimulation. Your leadership, your voice, and your mission contribute to the profound impact you have on the world.
Pluto in Scorpio in the 7th house (secret power):
You were born into a societal reckoning of the intersection of sex, death, and intergenerational trauma on a mass, public scale, and you have a comfort with these themes that your parents or caregivers most likely do not. You know that addressing what is repressed and suppressed is both inevitable and vital for healing and collectively moving forward. Bursting forth from the confines of tradition, you need a more substantial reason for staying together than security. This doesn’t mean there aren’t times when the opposite is true however; you also seek to experience all aspects of intimacy, sometimes to your own detriment. When other folks run for the hills, that’s when you lean in. You know that life is messy, people are complicated, and that falling in love with our partners – romantic, platonic, and business alike – is only the first step. You’re willing to get down and dirty, to go through the muck, to sit through the disappointments and inevitable losses in order to get to the really good stuff on the other end. However, be sure to guard your energy, as this propensity for intensity can sometimes attract folks who prefer to live in the underworld of life full time.
Neptune in Capricorn in the 9th house (imagination):
You have little idealism for institutional structures, and little, if any, trust in the promises of governments and corporations. Rather, your desire is to re-imagine the structure of society and especially our collective relationship to wealth.
In the 9th house of travel, education, and philosophy: guided by philosophical or spiritual principles, you’re responsive to an outlook on the human condition that is serious, somber, and based on a set of established, time-tested rules. Your gift is that you can be vulnerable with others. Allowing the world to see your inner workings is part of how you gain self-knowledge. You infuse your connections with a compassion and flair for the fantastical. You know the power of highlighter well placed upon the cheekbone and can be a master of illusions. In fact, are you good at being vulnerable, or are you good at making us believe that you are? Probably both.
Uranus in Sagittarius in the 8th house (how I innovate/disrupt):
Your ability to shrug off judgments can make you unstoppable in your quest for new experiences and connection. Rather than following an established path, you create your own route, with an inner compass that leads you to your own set of unique personal beliefs. You understand that there is always further to explore. Your need for space to follow your instincts can push you toward self-isolation or self-righteousness. While it’s not a defining characteristic of your birth chart, being born when Uranus was retrograde does signify that it may be challenging for you to work with your more disruptive qualities effectively. You thrive in environments that constantly change. Embracing the impermanence of life helps you live it to its fullest. Innovative and creative, you channel your anxious energy out and into different mediums of self-expression. Unafraid to speak up about things that are considered dark or too painful to address, you’re drawn to unconventional ways of working with suffering and healing. Disruptions of unusual events can really throw people off, but your steadiness comes from being comfortable in a constant state of flux. You know how to maintain your buoyancy no matter the weight of the situation, helping others learn to float alongside you. Your unique but relentlessly hopeful perspective helps expand the minds of others, even when they may be frustrated by your ability to reach for the long-term in the most painful of present moments.
Saturn in Sagittarius in the 8th house (how I create boundaries):
The disillusionment that comes to burn down our old systems of knowledge can leave depression, cynicism, and hopelessness in its wake. Rebuilding means learning how to foster a responsible relationship to faith, one that allows you to relinquish the fear of being wrong. The gift that you can bring to the world is a commitment to truth and doing the right thing. By staying open-minded, you have the opportunity to become a trusted moral authority. With your natal Saturn retrograde, you will tend to revisit, review, and revise your work, your expectations, and your limits over time. Setting boundaries and coming into your own authority will either be challenging for you, or you’ll do it in ways that are unusual or through circumstances that are uncommon. You have a valuable perspective on rules and norms, as you understand them differently than most people. You bring stability to the most unsettling, emotionally uncertain of circumstances. Others lean on you, knowing you are sturdy enough to take it. But sometimes, your willingness to take it – your belief in your own ability to single-handedly support others – backfires. You have incredible reserves of inner strength, it’s true. But even you need support. Even you can overdo it, emotionally speaking. Remember your boundaries, and embrace help when it’s offered.
Jupiter in Pisces in the 11th house (how I create abundance):
You know that abundance is everyone’s birthright. With your kind of miracle growth potion, you can seem to make something out of nothing. Of course, you know that so many of the boons of your life flow to you because of the kindness you practice: softness is a strength that you have in spades. The only downside here is that you have to be careful not to pour yourself out completely. You’re someone who takes a lot of pride in your emotional care-taking, in being a support system for others. The networks of care that you weave can withstand the most difficult of storms.
Mars in Capricorn in the 9th house (how I take action):
You have more stamina, strength, and endurance than most can make sense of. Self-motivated, you’ve got entrepreneurial energy in spades, and you’re probably the boss, or destined to be one. Others value your work ethic and consistency. However, it can be easy to feel burdened by the weight of responsibility, like you’re the only one you can count on.
A stellar student, higher education has likely been an important step for you, even if you ultimately realized that walking away from traditional certifications was an essential part of your journey. You are someone who will be well-known for your uncanny ability to grasp new concepts, learn languages, understand a vast array of philosophies, and find the time and energy to travel far and wide. You know how to achieve long-term goals in ways that leave others wondering just what in the world they are doing with their life. You catapult your way through life making massive strides without breaking a sweat.
It’s vital for you to spend time exploring the structural underpinnings of the world you live in, and why so often, these structures cause so much harm. You yearn for relationships that are based on your mutual self-improvement or spiritual understanding and need those that can support you in your personal and professional goals. Soulmates come in every shape, size, and relationship agreement, and you are someone who has had and will continue to have many.
You were born when Mars was retrograde, which means that taking action can take you a little more deliberation than you would like. Learning to trust your gut is key, and will help you when you need to say no and mean it. Refuse to invest in things that don’t energize you or align with your personal values. If you’re not willing to fight for it now, you won’t be later.
Ascendant trine Mars: What is too much wattage for some is just the right kind of wave for you. You get a lot done when you want to. You thrive in a good competition and come to life when your opponents are as playfully serious as you. Confidence comes when you test your strength, and your will is steely when set to a task.
Jupiter sextile Mars: You want to learn everything, go everywhere, meet everybody and experience it all – and that’s just your to-do list for the day. As exciting as it is overwhelming, know that you don’t have to do it all right now.
Pluto sextile Mars: Moments of catharsis are your greatest teachers. You seek knowledge in the underworld: in moments of cyclical death and rebirth, in moments of loss, in the mysteries of life. You look for wisdom where others fear to tread, and you are single-minded in your pursuit.
Sun opposing Mars: You’re a clever student, but not always the most disciplined one. You’d rather learn by doing, but that’s not always possible for the pursuits you’re most drawn to. It’s important to find a way to make your path work for you, rather than against you, but it’s vital, no matter what you choose, to cultivate patience. Time is a slow teacher, but an essential one.
Neptune conjunct Mars: What you believe tends to be more idealistic than it is realistic. As a seeker of spiritual or philosophical truth, it’s important not to mistake the rush of an experience for the answer. As someone who wants to be connected to a larger purpose, you love to feel inspired, but inspiration is a largely unreliable muse. In between visits, practice the art of showing up for the work at hand whether you feel called to or not.
Venus in Leo in the 4th house (how and where I connect):
Venus in Leo is a brilliantly magnetic showstopper. Venus is always invested in beauty, using the enticing power of attraction to forge unions of all kinds. And Leo loves love and adores adoring. Leo is associated with sovereignty and innate leadership, the kind of strength that comes from being fully centered in oneself. Sometimes, this can mean being self-centered, but at its best, it’s much more about being a resplendently self-assured center of gravity.
Your whole life is steered by a desire to maintain the loving bonds you have with the people you call family, whether they be natal or chosen folks who have sprung up around you as you’ve grown into your true self. You often perform the foundational role of the radiant Queen Bee within those clusters, a magnetically warm center of gravity around which your loved ones circle. You can be very set in your ways when it comes to how you do things at home, from decor to cleaning to health regimens; once you’ve found something that fits your aesthetically expressive approach, you stick with it. Prioritize surrounding yourself with people who truly support your flourishing as much as you support theirs.
Ascendant square Venus: Attention isn’t hard to attract, though it might come with a bit of backlash. Pleasure and prosperity are a top priority, but can also clash with some other preconceived notion that you have about hard work and sacrifice.
Moon conjunct Venus: Creating a beautiful, nurturing home environment comes naturally to you, and retreating to this place brings you blissful solace. A natural host, you enjoy sharing your home with others.
Mercury conjunct Venus: You enjoy bringing people together in comfortable environments with good conversation and beautiful food. Home is a place where you can create connections through exchanging ideas and common interests. You’re the peace-maker and mediator in your family, making sure everyone’s voice is heard and resolving conflicts. For you, belonging is best cultivated through sharing artistic and intellectual pursuits with your chosen family.
Saturn trine Venus: There is something in you inherently that knows how to build home and hearth with loved ones. You know that when passing on familial tradition, it’s best to pick the values that affirm and discard those that don’t. You know how to be both loyal and discerning no matter the connection with others.
Uranus trine Venus: Some people need to make a radical break with their upbringing to discover liberation and authenticity, but you’re probably among those who are blessed with not only a heritage they love, but also one that provides them with the freedom to discover themselves within it. You may have inherited your unusual tastes, habits, or beliefs from the people that raised you.
IC conjunct Venus: Your home is a place where you don’t simply snooze in the moonlight hours, but which you cultivate as a perennial art project. Here, the colors aren’t mere paint, but mood enhancers. Scents open portals to memory and pleasure. Textures entice guests to touch the curtains, the sofa. To stay a while. Venus also presides over the impulse to join together, making you the family’s de facto party planner. In difficult moments, you have a talent for softening the hard edges between people and forging a path of mutual understanding.
Pluto square Venus: Love is an intensely private affair for you, in part because you are conscientious of its power. If you came to believe that love was a sometimes terrifying force from your family or caregivers, it’s high time to unpack the origins of those feelings. Chances are they hold worlds of information for generations of you and yours. Even if you hold your cards close to your chest, the affections you dole out are that much more valuable because of what it cost you to get there.
Mercury in Leo in the 4th house (how and where I communicate):
You communicate with warmth, charisma, and heart. Making your messages into performance is your pastime. Flexibility of thought isn’t your strong suit, but learning to listen and reconsider your stance can be.
Ascendant square Mercury: You know the power of a well-placed argument, but that doesn’t mean you always need to use it. The more you’re able to hone and direct your intellectual acumen, the better quality debates you’ll get into.
Moon conjunct Mercury: You’re abundantly expressive with those you consider family, demonstrating your affection through regular communication and open, forthright emotion. You’re also able to keep track of all the details that help your home life run smoothly.
Saturn trine Mercury: The wise and rational voice in family or cohabitation situations, you’re great at creating structure for yourself and those around you. you understand the importance of personal boundaries. You enjoy serious conversations, particularly as relationships evolve over time.
Uranus trine Mercury: Home is where all your creative, innovative ideas first take root. You need an environment that’s adaptable to your needs and contains a vast amount of accessible information. You’re always looking to switch things up, and you enjoy carrying out your ideas independently. It’s ideal for you to live with people who are similarly fun, flexible, and experimental, capable of rolling with your raucous energy.
Pluto square Mercury: You want to understand how your past, with its powerful and difficult experiences, has shaped you. It’s important to create an environment for yourself where you feel safe expressing vulnerability. You’re a powerful advocate for others when there are unequal power dynamics at play, and it’s important for you to explicitly advocate for yourself in the same way.
Moon in Leo in the 4th house (body and emotions):
You have access to a kind of fiery confidence that, when turned on, has enough wattage to light up the world. The only fuel it needs is attention. Known for your warmth, generosity, and possibly even a flair for the dramatic. Enlivening exchanges with those closest to you are vital for your sense of emotional security. Whether you feel extroverted or tend toward the shy side, it’s important for you to receive validation and feedback from your audiences, no matter how big or small. This call and response is a key component of how you process what’s going on in your life. It may feel uncomfortable to admit this, especially if you grew up in a culture that encouraged you to dim your light, rather than be your honest, loudest, truest self. Part of your work now is to reclaim that ground and know you are meant to shine. Like the sun gives vitality to all living things through its bright light, you too know how to enthusiastically encourage others to grow. You find abundant blessing through your creative and self-expressive pursuits, feeling fed by the process of bombastic exchange. Manifesting a space where you and those you love can feel at home, surrounded by art and self-reflective memorabilia, is essential for your sense of well-being. Your relationship to other people’s reaction to you runs deep. Find ways to be appreciated for your sparkle and zest that don’t require you to contort yourself. You were born when the sun was absent from the sky, and the Moon, Venus, and Mars will have dominion over your life’s unfolding.
Sun in Cancer in the 3rd house (identity and where I shine):
You are the memory keeper. You carry with you every feeling you’ve ever felt, every experience you’ve ever had. Your superpower, in turn, is sensing what others need. Bonding is your goal; care-taking is your preferred modality. Your crabby exterior and strong intuition work overtime to keep out the energy vampires and folks who would glom on, taking much of your precious time and attention but giving little in return. And you, of all people, know the value of your time. You can be prone to moodiness and irritability, particularly if you haven’t taken a shower or bath to cleanse yourself of the latest emotional residue you passed through on the street, but at your best, you nourish yourself and others by creating spaces for connection. You weave the net that holds the people you call family together.
Words of affirmation come naturally to you. If you love or care for someone, they’ll know it. You’re tuned into what’s happening in your neighborhood and you have a deep care for the local history, which may involve your family history as well. The roles you take on in your relationships with siblings, cousins, and friends who feel like family define a large part of your identity, and as much as you naturally fall into caretaker roles, it’s important to be discerning about when that works for you. Your daily rituals and routines, and quite possibly bath time, can provide a helpful space for reflection as well as for regularly flushing your system of the emotional residue you’ve collected through your varied exchanges with others.
Ascendant sextile Sun: Optimism is your protection against life’s naysayers. You know that if given the chance, you can wow them with your special sparkle and, if they refuse you, eventually they’ll be drawn to your glow. Vim and vigor are your companions and as much as you attract attention, so too are you able to give applause. In need of constant challenge, you tire quickly of the monotonous. Find the stages upon which you can have many costume changes.
Jupiter trine Sun: Your infectious confidence in yourself and your life mission is one of your greatest gifts. You may find that you easily attract and receive assistance and inspiration from those close to you, and that you reciprocate that support, as well. You’re a consummate people-person, and your career may either center around or strongly benefit from this talent. Your optimism and enthusiasm enables you to look at life in a glass half-full manner.
Pluto trine Sun: Your ability to communicate about and hold space for others’ underworld experiences is one of your secret powers. You spend a lot of time in research and contemplation, as you find the information you study to be a resource in your life purpose. Carving out boundaries around your environment and work will be essential to protecting your energetic reserves.
Mars opposing Sun: A major challenge for you is communicating in a way that ensures you are heard. You have a great force of personality that may be prone to putting others off. For you, the trick is accessing your warmth and charm in a way that encourages connection. Choose your battles wisely and make sure you have daily outlets for excess energy. The conflicts you learn to navigate will help you in all other areas of your life.
Neptune opposing Sun: It can be difficult for you to access an inner sense of confidence, particularly when it comes to how you think and communicate. You may have doubts when it comes to your ability to effectively share information with others, but know that you are always intuitively picking up on valuable information. You have a tender heart, and it’s important to honor that.
Taurus Rising (my motivation for living life):
You know how to bring beauty into form and want to be known for your ability to stabilize available resources and make something long lasting out of them. You naturally gather others around you and provide them with generous amounts of grounding nourishment. The more you align with your own generativity, the more at home you feel. You are here to produce what you can from the land that is your life, cultivating good conditions for future growth over many seasons. You may be known for both your stubbornness but also your ability to manifest the potential that passes others by. When you feel insecure, you may trick yourself into thinking it is safer to try and control, possess, or force life in a certain direction. You are slow to anger, but once you’ve been pushed to your brink, your raging bull is hard to rein in.
Moon square Ascendant: Sensitivity is a gift but one that needs to be managed and understood. As you get better at proactively addressing your needs, you feel less vulnerable to other people’s edges and intolerable traits, and you are more able to show up with the care you crave to give and receive.
Jupiter sextile ascendant: Some are born lucky. Some make their own luck. Some know that luck is to be welcomed and celebrated but never expected. You are all three. Born with a penchant for stumbling upon four leaf clovers, you are never not amused by the appearance of them. A teacher whether by trade or temperament, you seek wisdom, center your own kind of spirituality, and generally believe that people can overcome a great many odds in the right conditions, which makes you a favorite among many. You can generally be found in good spirits, generously cheering everyone else on and up. This is your wisdom: give and you shall never feel lack.
Pluto opposing ascendant: You may or may not feel the need to establish yourself as a dominant force, but understanding the source of your authentic power is essential. We all cause harm and we have all been harmed, but to be conscious of how, when and why we do so requires a dedication to self-reflection. Terrifying to most, if you should choose it for yourself this path will reap treasures too rich to regret.
*all above synthesized from CHANI*
